Forever long since i've done a thing like this

Ok.. this won't be long, because i need sleep, but HOLY SHIT!  I can't believe i'm doing this.. I'm writing in my xanga......  I seem to have become obsessed with the other weblog myspace, and it's overtaking my life!  I think it's doing that to a lot of people though.  it's like a gossip magnet.. and seeing i love to gossip!  hah.. jk.. anyways..

My life has been a whirlpool of events lately, and as of now, it seems to finally be going on some kind of track forward, which makes me happy.. I just came back from a college visit at Pacific Union College in Angwin, CA.  it's a beautiful place, and I am thinking about going there in two years.  I wish I had visited earlier because I just met some excellent people I will be sad to never be able to go to college with.. My age sucks for me.  I should never have stayed back in first grade... DAMmit.. I knew i would regret that! haha  ok.. so anyways.  I've had some boy drama, some family drama, some chick drama.. I guess some chicks i don't know hate me.. it's pretty cool.. haha.. I danced withher boy.. oh NO!  and.. hm.. I'm gaining weight.. which is NOT good.. at all.  oh.. and drama .. hmm.. I hate it.  especially when it's with myself.  GOSH.. anyways.> I'm planning on waking up early and going to the gym to work out with my sister, and then I'm going to school, then SNOWBOARDING!  everyone better come to monday night madness at Shawnee tomorrow night.. or else i will have to kick so mainer ass!  seriously.. it's $10 who cares if the conditions are shit.. haha..

~love me!

Currently Playing Piano Man: The Very Best of Billy Joel By Billy Joel see related

Dawn had broken
The birds were chirping
The world was mine
free of any disturbances

I grinded the coffee beans
the aroma was high
it was done
I made some coffee

On my porch I sat
the grass was wet with dew
I was all alone
englufed with the mist of the morning

My time had come
no one to wait on
no one to deman my assistance
I was free with my coffee in hand

I inhaled the fresh morning air
soothing, so it was
there was no other place i'd be
than alone on my  porch at this time

totally random

Satan may seem strong to one, but just remember... God is so much more powerful.  Never let the Devil take advantage of you.  Believe me, he will try so hard.  But if you let God keep the upper hand in your heart, you will be safe, and nothing can harm you. 

I just got woken up from what I think may have been Satan trying to get to me.  You can call me crazy, but the way it all happened, I'm almost positive it was him, or one of his angels (demons). 

I was having a dream that 2 pastors i think it was were telling me something.  What they were telling me seemed to not be true, so in my sleep, I asked the Lord to show me some sign.  I didn't totally specify, but I had a little idea of what would reach me.  Then all of a sudden I felt something weighing down on me, then above me was a cloaked figure and to my side I heard snarling and growling.  I couldn't breath or move ( I felt this happening for real life) then I asked the Lord to help me, and all of a sudden.. BAM I woke up.  I was released.  I stayed lieing down in bed for a little while after that continuously praying, and I kept feeling a warm blanket covering me  and warming me through my body.  Then  I started to get a little scared, so I came downstairs and tried to sleep on the couch across from where my sister was sleeping, with my dog.  Every time I started to fall asleep, I kept feeling something weighing down on me, and then twice, i felt something tickling my cheek.  I thuoght it was a strand of hair, so i tried to move the hair off my cheek, and it wasn't there.  So i just kept praying, and told my sister who was sleeping she got freaked out.  She's still sleeping, but I am awake, unable to lie down to sleep.  Please pray for me. 
~Shaina